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varkelton ([personal profile] varkelton) wrote2011-09-01 07:23 pm

The World Devours Me - Epilogue

For Warnings and Summary, see Master Post


Epilogue

Lucifer wandered through the broken hallways of the old building, feeling restless after being so long apart from his vessel. The one he wore was… itchy, uncomfortable, beneath him. He’d gotten used to the diversion, the game of molding Samuel into a form more suitable to his purposes, and now that that challenge had been blocked, he was rapidly becoming… bored.

Not that he didn’t possess unending patience – an eternity in the cage could make a saint out of a demon.

And not that he didn’t have plenty of other challenges to keep him occupied, but Samuel was… special. Lucifer longed for the day he could that he could truly possess the boy in every sense of the word. It had been a long time indeed that Lucifer could lay claim to that particular emotion. Hunger, lust, yearning... the ache of it tasted sweet on his tongue.

He entered the room and its lone occupant uttered some small profanity and scooted back into the corner, as if that might protect it from Lucifer’s desires. He gazed down at the pitiful creature, understanding why it wished for death, but also knowing that its desires were irrelevant. It was a bit pathetic how much the human creatures valued themselves.

A sudden bout of courage fueled the creature, and it lurched up, spitting a glob of spittle on Lucifer’s face. It remained standing, although its body shook with fear, as if there was something to prove here.

“Tim,” Lucifer murmured calmly. “I see Belphegor let you out to play.” He reached up and scrapped his fingers over the slime, wiping it from his face and running his dampened hand along the front of Tim’s filthy shirt.

Tim closed his eyes, a small whimper escaping him before he fell to his knees in submission, his bravery gone as abruptly as it had come. “Please,” he begged, “Let me go. I’m no threat to you. Or… or kill me, if that’s the only way out, but please don’t let me live like this anymore. What use do you have of me?”

“When I take control of the boy, he will want to see you suffer, make you pay for what you did to him. Who am I to deny my vessel that right?”

“It wasn’t me, you arrogant fuck! It was the demon!” Tim yelled.

“Well, who says the boy ever needs to know?” Lucifer’s mouth twitched in amusement, continuing, “And who says the boy will even care? It was your failures that let the demon have access to you. He will be cursing your name for eternity for his rape, and I intend to indulge him where I can.” Lucifer was tiring of the banter. It was time.

“Belphegor,” Lucifer growled, “You can’t hide inside of the human forever. Come out. Now.”

The human’s eyes immediately blackened. “I was not…” it started to protest.

Lucifer’s hand snapped out, gripping the demon around its neck and slamming it against the wall. “Silence,” Lucifer hissed, faintly annoyed that the demon had managed to raise his temper. “I have a wish to see my vessel; this should not require talking by you.”

“Yes, my lord,” the demon replied. Lucifer allowed it to pull free of his grip so it could abase itself before its God.

“That is better.” Lucifer placed his hands on either side of the creature’s head, sinking his fingers into its skull to root around for the images he knew were stored there. Belphegor screamed in agony, but it was of no concern to him. It didn’t take long before he found what he was looking for. “Good boy,” he murmured absently, patting the demon on the head as it sank down in abject misery, whimpering to itself. “You will continue to wait here for me.”

The building faded around him, to be quickly replaced by a darkened motel room that reeked of recent sex. With barely a thought, Lucifer ensured that the two men entwined in each other’s arms would remain sleeping for the next several hours; it would not do for him to be discovered now. The lights flickered on, bathing the two boys in a surreal glow. They were beautiful, the desperation they felt for each other clear even as they slept. Lucifer moved to Sam first, pressing his lips lightly against the side of the boy's face.

He took Dean’s hand and pressed it against Samuel’s naked chest, directly over the mark. The bond pulsed between them, warm and powerful, and both boys stirred slightly, moaning softly in their sleep. He smiled. Their connection was definitely getting stronger. He released Dean’s hand and moved around the bed, lying down and pulling Dean’s naked body against his own, letting his fingers skim across the muscled chest.

“Soon,” he murmured, letting the slight body heat warm him. “Soon, I will be able to start grooming you to say yes to Michael. Then, once Sam lets me in, Michael will be mine as well. Thank you.” Lucifer pressed a kiss against Dean’s neck, then dropped his hand down to take Dean’s dick in hand possessively. “Michael will never know what hit him.”

He jerked on Dean’s dick a few times, pleased when it started to fill for him. Pressing light kisses against Dean’s warm, sweat drenched neck, he began stroking in earnest. Lucifer let his mind drift as he worked, pretending it was his own brother in his hand. When Dean finally came, Lucifer moaned Michael’s name, holding himself off, but allowing Dean’s spunk to be added to what was already there. The boys would never suspect a thing.

Lucifer sat up and leaned over Dean, pressing a final farewell kiss to Sam’s lips. “Soon, child. Soon there will be nothing left for you to worry about.”

The lights flickered out.

Lucifer was gone.



~Le fin~



Part Twelve | Master Post

[identity profile] deancaslover32.livejournal.com 2011-09-02 02:48 am (UTC)(link)
Oh god it's done I am off to read it -squeee- can't wait -grins-

[identity profile] tifaching.livejournal.com 2011-09-02 03:17 am (UTC)(link)
So, you're writing a sequel, right? You're not just going to leave it there, right? RIGHT?

I want Dean groomed. Pretty please?

I loved this so much and I'm so thrilled to see you've posted! Gonna go back and read from the beginning because it definitely needs a read through just for pleasure.

[identity profile] katsheswims.livejournal.com 2011-09-02 03:29 am (UTC)(link)
No! You just had to leave off with that evil ending....why, why, why? The poor boys deserve to be happy...Maybe I'll just pretend that Lucifer is deluded and it never happened, or if it did Sam and Dean will win anyway.

This was amazing, but so horrible too-though of course you meant it to be that way. Angst is kind of your forte.

Keep up the good work!

[identity profile] deancaslover32.livejournal.com 2011-09-02 06:32 am (UTC)(link)
OMG this made me cry so much -sighs- POOR fucking sam is all I can say -nods- and I know you are writing a sequel to this.. Because of how you left it -grins- Angst is your thing girl you write it so well it amazes me -grins- Can't wait for your next story.
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[identity profile] wolfish-willow.livejournal.com 2011-09-03 02:08 am (UTC)(link)


For my sanity, I choose to believe this ended with part 12 and the epilogue is just... a nightmare or something leave me alone, my fragile fangirl mind can't handle it.

I think it helps that I read your updates about it and already kind of thought that Lucifer would still manage to get his way in the end of it all.

OMG, this hurt so much I cried. I spent the majority of the past couple nights flailing and sobbing and I love you for it. WOW. I finished it and I didn't know what I was feeling anymore. What Sam went through is so painful and horrific and Dean being oblivious made it hurt that much more but I'm so glad that he finally got a clue later and became the protective guy he'd been before Hell. And thank you so much for getting some comfort in there. I don't know what I would have done without it because I would have read it anyways and now at least I know Sam has Dean to curl up next to every night.

So very worth the wait, WOW. Amazing piece of fiction, man. ~AMAZING~

You are made of win.

[identity profile] roxymissrose.livejournal.com 2011-09-03 03:52 am (UTC)(link)
AAAAAAAAAHH!!!!

DUDE!

You're seriously trying to kill me. What the heck--they were betrayed? Or did Cas underestimate Lucifer's power? You ripped my poor little heart to tatters and in the end, set fire to the tatters! Damn. Please tell me that's not the end--no, no--don't tell me anything, I don't want to know!

Sam's story was horrible and heart-breaking, it really was, and at first I just wanted to drop kick Dean through the wall. But then we learn more about Dean and what his time in hell was like or rather, we find out that he's been dealing with more or less having had his life in *and* before hell separated from him. It makes everything about how he reacted to Sam make so much more sense.

What he does for Sam is a real sacrifice of love, because without a doubt, neither of them would have come to that place on their own. Lucifer took Sam's mildly sexual sort of curiosity about Dean, his dependence on him, and twisted it into that. I felt that at first Lucifer didn't really get what Dean meant to Sam but that he eventually used it to set up that situation to get get what he wants--Sam as his vessel and Michael as his lover.

At the end, I felt like all along I'd been reading one story, and then found out that it had really been about something else all along, if that makes sense. I enjoyed this story very much--in a way that made me snivel, had me wincing and cringing quite a bit--at times I had to stop and take many breaths, and I yelled, omg, poor Sam' a lot--but it was a very good story, and had me by the neck the whole way through.

Thank you for sharing this, and sorry for the long-winded, windy kind of comment.

[identity profile] ayane42.livejournal.com 2011-09-03 07:49 am (UTC)(link)
Wow, that was awesome!! So well put together, I really really enjoyed this!!

Thank you!!

[identity profile] jasmineisland.livejournal.com 2011-09-03 09:32 pm (UTC)(link)
As always, OMG! I read the entire thing in one sitting. I couldn't stop reading.
I think the first story of yours I read was Issue of Consent. Read everything and love it. but this? Twisted, demented, painful, and absolutely nail biting.
Have to go share with my friends now. And re-read it to make sure I didn't miss anything.

[identity profile] supernaturalfun.livejournal.com 2011-09-03 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
What an amazing piece of work. You are fast becoming one of my favorite writers to read in the 'hurting Sammy' department. My muse is a faint little shadow in the back of my mind these days so I love reading others' writing. And this? Was genius!

[identity profile] inyron.livejournal.com 2011-09-04 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
<3 <3 <3

It turned out wonderful. You really are a gifted writer!

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[identity profile] riveroceansea.livejournal.com 2011-09-05 04:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Your Lucifer muse is evil, evil, evil! I loved the epiloge twist though, it locked everything into place if you ever decide to do a sequel. Amazing, m'dear!

[identity profile] sniper-59.livejournal.com 2011-09-05 04:53 pm (UTC)(link)
This story made me feel a whole lot of emotions when I read it. Angry, horrified, but most of all sad! Thank FUCK the boys got Lucifer in the end (on the cost of Sam´s soul, none the less!).

However, this was still an amazing story! You really are a master of angst, hon xD I really enjoyed reading it.

[identity profile] yues-muse.livejournal.com 2011-09-05 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
this was like a train wreck(a good train wreck) i wanted to turn away but I couldn't it was soo goood....so um will we see Dean being groomed? will we? so awesome fic um great workj

[identity profile] firesign10.livejournal.com 2011-09-05 10:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Absolutely amazing. Vivid and heartrending and visceral and touching. So much pain and despair and just the little tiny glimpses of hope - but they keep on fighting. I love this hugely!!!!!

[identity profile] alxtorres33.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
Omg this was so amazing! The whole time i wanted to open deans eyes and scream look!!! My poor Sammy so much hurt and pain! Lucifer you bastard! This was beautiful darling! Very much worth the wait!

[identity profile] mre-quecky.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 08:08 am (UTC)(link)
Oh oh, what an interesting ending... Loved the story!

[identity profile] spnmonster.livejournal.com 2011-09-06 08:55 pm (UTC)(link)
Aaaagh, harrowing and sad and beautiful the way they love.
As for the epilogue -- let him try it. They'll win in the end.
Really wonderful fic. Thanks.

[identity profile] gidgetgal9.livejournal.com 2011-09-07 02:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I did it - I finally finished 'devouring' this story. It was made of awesome and so worth the wait. I loved every minute of the angst and brotherly bonding at the end. I must say, I was on the edge of my seat wanting Sam to have some relief - but finally he got it and wow, it was amazing. I see you kind of left it open to be revisited- I'm very on board with that. :)

[identity profile] gwendolynd.livejournal.com 2011-09-08 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
K, so I just found this story yesterday (during school - haha), and I inhaled the entire thing, finishing it in one sitting at night before bed.

I need to praise you, because of the brilliance of how you tear Sam's reality to pieces and make him so uncertain of everything---I actually had a dream last night where I was not sure if I was crazy or not. Reality was not a solid thing for me and I woke up a complete mess and literally had to text people to find out what had happened the night before to see if it was a dream or if I really was going nuts and seeing fireworks that weren't actually there. O_o

This was so brilliantly done, I just...*flail* The weave of what Sam believes and what Dean believes and just details that as I was reading I was like 'Fuck I'd never think of putting detail like that in!' and the utter lack of censory for gore! Yum!

There were only a few parts that made me stop, one being near the end when all of Sam's injuries spring up on him at once--you have his eyes popping again, but then a few paragraphs later he can see again. I'm not sure if I missed something, or what, but that threw me a little. The whole scenario at Grand Canyon messed with me too (though perhaps just a show of your brilliance?) because I was sure that it was another hallucination/dream of Sam's because Dean's snapping at him didn't make sense, but the entire thing was soooo good. I saved it in my memories. I love it. I actually winced because when Nick/Lucy was putting the leg cuffs on the first time, the way it was described, I was thinking 'Holy fuck he's going to amputate his legs!!!' lol

Now, have you joined spn_dark_vault? Because, I don't know about your other fics, but this one definately would have an audience there. ( http://spn-dark-vault.livejournal.com/profile ) And I will praise it like crazy. =D

*bows down to you*

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

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[identity profile] greenblue26.livejournal.com 2011-09-08 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
i just love any opportunity for dean to make sammy feel better:) and this had it in spades...loved it. now the end, does that mean a sequel is in the works?

[identity profile] fallingemerald.livejournal.com 2011-09-09 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
Omg, damn.

/speachless/ Omg.

I don't know if I should be angry at you or love you for that ending. Just damn. Also it hit sooo many of my not exactly kinks but angst-spots? I dunno what to call it. But...damn.

It was amazing. I loved and hurt for Sam all throughout; and poor Dean trying to figure it all out; he's only human after all.

(Is it wrong that the last scene was totally wrong-hot? /blushes/ I feel dirty now...)

Thank you for writing that wonderful story dear <3

[identity profile] lissa-ann.livejournal.com 2011-09-10 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
It took me a couple of days to read through this, because I had other things taking up my attention, but oh. my. god.

I don't even have the words to explain how beautiful and painful this was. It was epic, and so well written. I could picture the story as you crafted it as I read it.

Excellent work. Speechless. Thanks for sharing.

[identity profile] whatjuliewrites.livejournal.com 2011-09-12 05:03 pm (UTC)(link)
So, that was pretty much off the scales in terms of angst and manpain. Certainly much hurtier than anything I could have imagined. Why do we enjoy seeing Sam (and Dean) so destroyed?!?

Sam's self-loathing was so painful to read. I just wanted to hug him--and get him some freaking medical attention!

So glad Dean finally stopped making assumptions born from anger and hurt and went into Sam's dream to find out what was really happening.

And just when everything was settling down, Lucifer is up to something eeeevil again. Uh-oh!
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[identity profile] keerawa.livejournal.com 2011-09-18 04:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Yikes! That's a nasty, nasty epilogue!

That was quite a ride, varkelton! Sam's nightly torment, combined with the offered mercy of fake!Dean. *shivers* I woke up one morning not able to see because of a severe allergic reaction, and it was terrifying - you captured the panic and helplessness of that blindness well in Sam's story.

Ad I felt for Dean here - so betrayed, trying to be the man he remembered from before Hell, but not able to do it without the Sam he remembered. With Lucifer's lies feeding into his anger the whole time. *hisses*

And that mornign when Sam woke up thinking he'd said Yes, with no idea of what was real and what wasn't, UGH.

Not a fun read. But a good one!

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